funny thing I found about the Iphone today is that its parts are relatively much more easily accessible. yet in contrast, the same company's computers are on totally the opposite side of the spectrum. The international market has huge demands for the phone, its like a 'toyota' of the smartphone world. The Mac on the other hand is like an outdated Bentley or maybe a maserate; which just is too expensive to afford for the repairs and modifications.
so, this was just a surprizing inquiry I stubled upon today. though i'd share

i've been thinking , i have been thinking about life in general. it's really enticing to just sit back a enjoy the bits of moments that the internet provides and be lost in the infinite bits of entertainment it has to offer

i get lost in longing fo rher, every time i recall her mesmorizing allure which leaves me dumbfounded
may be it is the conseption of her that i'm in love with yet i want her so bad . i become so relentless . i cant keep al these feelings for myself, i expose my weakness when i expres these feelings to the people who are remotely close to me.

maybe it is true that what i am experiencing right now is something that the western aliberal generation may have experienced much before this age i am in at the moment .

but i cant help myself. maybe its because i've restrained myself so much , from going out and experiencing the world's offereings . the bounties that are so close in reach because i live in the msot affluent regions, with so much opportunity to investigate the available variety of people experiences etc.

my weekends are something i look forward to yet as i get through them i start to despise them. the vacuum they instill within me , oh how painful this lonliness can become. aothough it is nothing compared to what the experiences wre 2 years back. because now my family is with me , it is much more bearable.

yet it is also true that i am comfined, self confined rather to my own private space of my room, ny screen, my virtual reality .

i read this amazingly relevant quote yesterday about solitude. that it is a great place to visit, but a horrible space to stay.
 i cant think of much else to write.

i also want to share something i learned today , that yesterday evening a cyclist of age 34 died in a 6 vehicle colision which was less than 4km away from my house. i hvant told this to my mom, because i care for her, and i do not want her to worry about me as a i ride my bike on these roads, at night.

i think the compromises i am starting to make with my mom reflect a sense of maturity that i am attaining, although at a steady pace. i think to a more or less extent the life of marraige is gonna be the same,

because you think you love the person you have on your mind constantly . but rather its the conception of that person that you adore. and with the strike of reality i think to atleast some extent ther would be a need to establish compromises.